WHAT IF?
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I love to listen to this song these days because I haven't gotten over yet the recently concluded drama "FOREVERMORE." I still have the hang over and I can't get enough of Enrique Gil and Liza Soberano. They are perfect together. And, it makes me want to fall in love again.
These questions linger in my mind for quite awhile now:
What if I bump into my ex-boyfriend? The ex-boyfriend I haven't met for 5 years but kept in touch until last year. The ex-boyfriend whom I thought I would end up with. The ex-boyfriend who told me "I wanna grow old with you." What would my reaction be? Honestly, he wanted to meet me last year when he knew that I am in Manila and am back in the Philippines. Deep inside, I really wanted to to test my emotions whether I still have feelings or not. But I stopped myself from meeting him because he already had a girlfriend. Just a few months ago. Until now, I still wonder what if we're still together? What if we still love each other? Among my boyfriends, he's my first love. Though we haven't met for quite awhile, he still comes to my mind from time to time and sometimes I wish to meet him one day.
On the other hand, there's this guy whom I think I have a crush on. I wonder if he feels the same. What if he, too,has a crush on me, would he confess his feelings? If he would, would I say yes? Am I prepared to be in a relationship again? Am I ready to leave the person who is with me for five years? This person means so much to me. This person is my soulmate and best friend. This person knows me better than my family does. I share with this person my dreams, my fears, my worries, and everything. We are each other's best buddies.
I am now in my late 20s. In the Philippines, when you reach this age, your peers and people around you pressure you to settle down. But with whom? The question is Am I Ready? I have got lots of responsibilities. For now, my priority is my sibling's college education.
I don't have answers to my questions right now, but I pray to God, whatever His plans for me, teach me to embrace them with wide arms. God knows what's best for me.
Right now, I just want to feel again the feeling of being in love. ^^
Sidenote: Don't rush things. Wait for the perfect time and the right one comes along.
I love to listen to this song these days because I haven't gotten over yet the recently concluded drama "FOREVERMORE." I still have the hang over and I can't get enough of Enrique Gil and Liza Soberano. They are perfect together. And, it makes me want to fall in love again.
These questions linger in my mind for quite awhile now:
What if I bump into my ex-boyfriend? The ex-boyfriend I haven't met for 5 years but kept in touch until last year. The ex-boyfriend whom I thought I would end up with. The ex-boyfriend who told me "I wanna grow old with you." What would my reaction be? Honestly, he wanted to meet me last year when he knew that I am in Manila and am back in the Philippines. Deep inside, I really wanted to to test my emotions whether I still have feelings or not. But I stopped myself from meeting him because he already had a girlfriend. Just a few months ago. Until now, I still wonder what if we're still together? What if we still love each other? Among my boyfriends, he's my first love. Though we haven't met for quite awhile, he still comes to my mind from time to time and sometimes I wish to meet him one day.
On the other hand, there's this guy whom I think I have a crush on. I wonder if he feels the same. What if he, too,has a crush on me, would he confess his feelings? If he would, would I say yes? Am I prepared to be in a relationship again? Am I ready to leave the person who is with me for five years? This person means so much to me. This person is my soulmate and best friend. This person knows me better than my family does. I share with this person my dreams, my fears, my worries, and everything. We are each other's best buddies.
I am now in my late 20s. In the Philippines, when you reach this age, your peers and people around you pressure you to settle down. But with whom? The question is Am I Ready? I have got lots of responsibilities. For now, my priority is my sibling's college education.
I don't have answers to my questions right now, but I pray to God, whatever His plans for me, teach me to embrace them with wide arms. God knows what's best for me.
Right now, I just want to feel again the feeling of being in love. ^^
Sidenote: Don't rush things. Wait for the perfect time and the right one comes along.
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